She Decided

She Decided
There and then
She’d thought long and hard
The possibilities infinite
The obstacles overcomeable
If she didn’t commit to herself now
When would she?

The fears, some real, some excuses
The shame, those who loved her wouldn’t have her any other way
The guilt, if she were happy then those she cared for would be happy with her
The past, it was time to let go
The future, so much to create and look forward to

Would things go smoothly?
Of course not, but she would rather traverse the journey on the scenic route

Would she forget? 
Never, but those scars could be covered and the memories lived on

Would people judge her?
Without a doubt, but she would rather be judged for being all of her than being invisible any longer

Would the pain disappear?
Not all of it, but the overwhelming joy would wrap her in comfort

Would she get stuck?
Probably but the freedom she would discover would be enough momentum to push through

She looked back
Lost dreams
Lost hopes
Lost sense of self
There was no way she was going to stay there for a minute longer

She decided
She had made a choice
She said to herself “it’s Time
To commit to you”